When Love is Madness

When love is madness (in honor of Marni)
When you cannot figure out what is going to happen next

When every word they say goes through your chest

When those words crash into your heart like shrapnel

The love makes you mad like you have no sanity

All you can say is “you drive me crazy”

So as you drink in his unpredictability

He lives in insanity

But not as in crazy

He keeps you off balance emotionally

While he drains his emotions in liquid libation

Stifled by sporadic emotional masturbation

Today he is emotive, tomorrow he might not be

You want to return to the first days of how he used to be

The time when he used to be so sweet and caring

Now all he seems to care about is everything but you

When love is madness you try to remain stable

When love is madness you attempt to smile

There’s no medication or therapy to fix this hurt

There’s no one person besides him, whom can Aleve this hurt

You want him to grab you and hug you, to relieve the hurt

So tired of reliving this hurt and pain

I just want to be normal again

I so often forget what is normal again and again

Never knew if we were normal to begin with

When you cannot figure out what is going to happen next

When every word he says goes through your chest

When those destroy your heart and prevent it from beating

When love is madness

The madness seems never ending


"An Akili Carter original"